2019 Ahead // It’s Twentybiteen, You Ready?

I’m back! Again!

Your fave chaotic disaster queer took time off once again to get her shit together! Did I???? Kinda???

I’m glad I took the time off, I needed that time and space to sort out and find balance in my life and did I???? Kinda???

So now I’m back! There are going to be a few changes! But I’ll go through that a little later in this post.

2018 was fucking hard man. It was maybe the worst year of my life so far which is not an easy feat, let me tell you!

I’m glad it’s over, I’m thankful for the lessons it gave me but more than anything I’m grateful for the foundation in providing for the next chapter of my life.

2019 so far has been just getting through the delayed effects of the last part of 2018 honestly. But I’m hopeful it’ll only get better from here.

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So what are the books I plan to read this year?? Honestly too many but here are the books I definitely want to get to in 2019.

I was going to talk about my anticipated releases BUT literally, everyone has done that so it’s not like I’d be sharing new information with anyone. No shade! Y’all those lists are amazing and I love them because I am always behind on what is coming out. Those posts just aren’t for me personally to write. But mostly it’s because this year I am focusing on books I actually own and neglected all of last year while I was busy having a love affair with my library.

the raven boys the raven cycle TRCThe Raven Cycle│Maggie Stiefvater│📖│🏳️‍🌈🔆🌹│➡️🔄│

I read the first book in 2017 and then my mum bought me the whole series for my birthday in 2018 and do you think I’ve read them yet??? Of course not! So I want to this year for sure!

Shadow and Bone Series│Leigh Bardugo│📖│

I loved the Six of Crows duology and now that the Grishaverse is getting a Netflix series I have to read the first series! Undoubtedly I will probably reread the Six of Crows duology after.

The Conqueror’s Saga│Kiersten White│📖│🏳️‍🌈🔆🌹│🔄│

I loved the first book in this series and I’ve bought the other two books as soon as they came out but did I read them??? No.

Montague Siblings│Mackenzi Lee│📖│🏳️‍🌈🔆🧠🚺│🔄│

I really enjoyed the first book in this series even though I was in a major reading slump and it heavily dampened my experience but I still enjoyed it so I’m looking to rereading it and then following it with the last book!

vicious villainsVillains│VE Schwab│📖│🌹│🔄⏸️│

I loved the first book and I can’t wait for the second one to come out. I ordered it in December but I entered my address wrong so I ended up going to my neighbour’s house to ask if they had it and they did!!!! Thank god for that!

I think I’ll wait to read them until I can get the paperbacks though since I like to annotate but not in my special editions.

The Dark Artifices│Cassandra Clare│📖│🏳️‍🌈🔆🧠🌹│🔄⏸️│

I loved the first book so much and I meant to read Lord of Shadows asap but then didn’t??? Now I’m just waiting for the last book to come out in the small paperback so I can read the series start to finish.

Harry Potter Series│JK Rowling│📖│🔆🌹│🔄│
I’m not putting LGBT rep because it’s not actually in the book and JK’s intentions don’t seem genuine to me.

The first time I read this series was 2011. And I didn’t finish it. So I’m gonna try again and watch the movies as I go to compare as well! And every time JK does some dumbass shit I am thankful I bought my copies secondhand.

Sharp Objects│Gillian Flynn│📖│🌹│

I fucking loved the TV series, it was so intense! I’m looking forward to reading the book!

sadie bookSadie│Courtney Summers│📚│🏳️‍🌈💋🌹🚺│

I’ve heard such good things and I need to read it but there’s a huge wait at the library and they do not have enough copies across the state library network so I might just end up buying it??

Sawkill Girls│Claire Legrand│📚│🏳️‍🌈💋🌹🚺│

I’m planning on reading this one this month if I can get a hold of it from the library!

The Hate U Give│Angie Thomas│📖│🔆🌹│

I neeeeeed to read this one pronto!!!!

Rejected Princesses│Jason Porath│📖│🏳️‍🌈💋🔆🧠🌹🚺➕│🔄⏸️│

Bygone badass Broads│Mackenzi Lee│📖│🏳️‍🌈💋🔆🧠🌹🚺➕│🔄⏸️│

So I decided on my new Structured TBR each month (More info in my Month Ahead post!) I’m going to read a certain amount of entries in these each month over the year.

Simon Vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda│Creekwood Series│Becky Albertelli│📖│🏳️‍🌈🔆│

I need to read the book for my fave romcom guys, I just have to.

children of blood and boneChildren of Blood & Bone│Legacy of Orïsha #1│Tomi Adeyemi│📖│🔆│

I literally bought this the day it came out and so, of course, I haven’t read it yet.

City of Ghosts│Cassidy Blake #1│Victoria Schwab│📖│🔆│

I have to read it, it’s a Schwab book. But I am pumped for it!!!

Percy Jackson and the Olympians│Rick Riordan│📖│🏳️‍🌈🧠│

A childhood classic I never fucking read as a child. Also, I now own almost all or Riordan’s books because they were super cheap secondhand and so I have to read them.

Past Grey Reads

☁️ Book Review // Girl Made of Stars – I Am Broken

☁️ Book Review // Everything Leads To You – A Quite Love Story

☁️ Book Review // The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo – What Do You Mean She’s Not a Real Person???



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Basically here’s a bunch of movies and seasons released this year that I want to watch!

the hate u give movie poster.jpgThe Hate U Give│🎥│Jan 31│🎬 George Tillman Jr.│🌟 Amandla Stenberg, Regina Hall, Russell Hornsby│

Australia sucks so this only just came out here but I am ready.

On The Basis of Sex│🎥│Feb 7│🎬 Mimi Leder│🌟 Felicity Jones, Armie Hammer, Justin Theroux│

Looks like a good feminist film!

Captain Marvel│🎥│Mar 7│🎬 Anna Boden, Ryan Fleck│🌟 Brie Larson, Gemma Chan, Samuel L. Jackson│

What is this??? The first solo Marvel film for a female Avenger??? I have been waiting!

Avengers: Endgame│🎥│Apr 24│🎬 Anthony Russo, Joe Russo│🌟 Brie Larson, Bradley Cooper, Karen Gillan│

I am not ready. Not even a little bit. I’m just glad it’s confirmed that our lil spidey survives somehow.

detective pikachu movie poster.jpgDetective Pikachu│🎥│May 9│🎬 Rob Letterman│🌟 Suki Waterhouse, Ryan Reynolds, Kathryn Newton│

When I first saw the trailer I legit thought it was a very cleverly put together fan trailer and died when I realised it was real.

Aladdin│🎥│May 23│🎬 Guy Ritchie│🌟 Will Smith, Billy Magnussen, Naomi Scott│

I am so excited, it’s gonna be so magical!

Rocketman│🎥│May 30│🎬 Dexter Fletcher│🌟 Richard Madden, Bryce Dallas Howard, Taron Egerton│

I never knew I needed it but then I heard of it and then I watched the trailer and now I’m already a fan.

men in black internation MIB movie poster.jpgMen in Black: International│🎥│Jun 13│🎬 F. Gary Gray│🌟 Rebecca Ferguson, Chris Hemsworth, Tessa Thompson│

This movie is for the bisexuals.

Spider-Man: Far From Home│🎥│Jul 4│🎬 Jon Watts│🌟 Zendaya, Jake Gyllenhaal, Cobie Smulders│

Okay blogging secret, when it comes to the directors, creators and stars of this segment I always just copy and paste from IMDB because I’m lazy and can we just appreciate the fact that Tom Hollandthe literal star of the movie, the person who plays the main characterisn’t even listed at the top as part of the top stars.

Also, I’m very excited to watch this. Tom and Zendaya are my children and they must be protected at all costs.

It: Chapter 2│🎥│Sep 5│🎬 Andy Muschietti│🌟 James McAvoy, Jessica Chastain, Bill Skarsgård│

I’m ready for adult loser club thanks.

Star Wars: Episode IX│🎥│Dec 19│🎬 J.J. Abrams│🌟 Keri Russell, Adam Driver, Richard E. Grant│

I’m always happy with a new Star Wars film.

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before 2│🎥│🎬 Susan Johnson│🌟 Lana Condor, Noah Centineo│


Brooklyn Nine-Nine│Season 6│📺│Jan 10│💭 Daniel J. Goor, Michael Schur│🌟  Andre Braugher, Andy Samberg, Stephanie Beatriz│

I’m so glad NBC saved this!!!!

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One Day At A Time│Season 3│📺│Feb 8│💭 Gloria Calderon Kellett, Mike Royce│🌟 Justina Machado, Todd Grinnell, Isabella Gomez│

This is probably mine and mum’s fave sitcom that makes us piss ourselves laughing but also makes us sob.

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Game of Thrones│Season 8│📺│Apr 14│💭 David Benioff, D.B. Weiss│🌟 Emilia Clarke, Peter Dinklage, Kit Harington│

I won’t make it to the end of 2019, not because of depression™ but because I’m going to die while watching this, I know it.

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Stranger Things│Season 3│📺│Jul 4│💭 Matt Duffer, Ross Duffer│🌟 Millie Bobby Brown, Finn Wolfhard, Winona Ryder│

I just want the gang together and happy.

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Mindhunter│Season 2│📺│💭 Joe Penhall│🌟Jonathan Groff, Holt McCallany, Anna Torv│

I gotta watch it and live text my thoughts to my aunt who is hugely into true crime (so much so that she is studying criminology). Because I’m hilarious and also I know she’ll appreciate it and also I no longer have a best friend to do this shit with.

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Big little Lies│Season 2│📺│💭 David E. Kelley│🌟 Reese Witherspoon, Nicole Kidman, Shailene Woodley│

Big Little Lies rocked my world and made me realise I actually like thrillers.

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│RuPaul’s Drag Race UK│Season 1│📺│

I’m just excited to see what a season would look like that isn’t hosted and judged by RuPaul.

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Past Grey Watches

☁️ Grey Watches // I Wanna Bone Jude Law and Kate Winslet – The Holiday

☁️ Grey Watches // It Has To Be A Shit Show – A Christmas Prince: The Royal Wedding

☁️ Grey Watches // I Hate It So Much I Love It – A Christmas Prince

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Yes I know I said I wouldn’t change the appearance of my blog while I was gone but we all know I’m a dirty liar.

Besides, it’s only some small tweaks here and there and I won’t be going back through my past posts to edit everything to match. A year of posts is too many. I promised myself and my mum I wouldn’t do it again.

This year I’m going to be posting less! Like half the amount I did last year.

Last year I eventually got to a schedule of four posts a week and this year I will be doing two.

I’m doing this for a couple of reasons.

  1. I exercise and eat healthy now and it turns out those two things take up so much time.
  2. I wanna start actually dedicating time to working on my new WIP and maybe have a draft by the end of the year????

I’m planning on doing more Grey Watches post this year, and my book review posts will now be called Grey Reads and I might try and do more discussion posts called Grey Speaks and maybe WIP writing updates in Grey Writes??? It’s all about that branding.

But who knows what I’ll do, honestly I don’t even know myself! I’m terrible with follow through but we’ll see!

My Ancient Archive posts will be moved to once every two months as well because those posts take ages and as much as I love them I just don’t have that kind of time. And they’ll also get a rename—Grey Learns

I was also going to start requesting physical ARCs from publishers but ahhhh turns out I don’t actually enjoy writing reviews??? And there’s always the risk that I’m not gonna like it and I’ll feel obligated to finish it and I don’t have time for that either so I’m not doing that, I’ll be requesting far, far less from Netgalley.

I’ll be posting book reviews roughly once or twice a month, instead of once a week. I’ll still be writing reviews for all the books I read but they’ll be a lot shorter and I’ll mostly just post them on my Goodreads.

If you notice I am reading a book you wanna see a review of over on here, let me know and I’ll be sure to post it!

Past Month In Review

☁️ Month in Review // Christmas is Over Thank Fuck – December

☁️ Month in Review // November – I Already Hate Christmas

☁️ Month in Review // July, August, September & October – New Post Series!

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☁️ Get to a point where I walk 10000 steps a day.

On the reg, like every day for the most part.
At the moment I just have my step goal as 8000 a day because small steps literally.

But I hit my first 10000 steps on the 16th of last month so that was very exciting for me especially since it was on the day I don’t go for a walk and proved why that is my day off because it’s my shopping day so I’m clearly walking plenty, to begin with!

☁️ Find a way to be more financially stable somehow.

Whether that be by a full-time job or maybe work out a way to get paid for doing what I love??

I don’t know. I’m trying to be more open to different paths to get to a place I want to be.

Also, it seems like I may be forced into this sooner rather than later thanks to things out of my control so that’s exciting but also terrifying because ANXIETY.

☁️ Finish a draft for my WIP.

Have I started writing it yet? Absolutely not but I’m gonna try!

And I’m very excited about the concept. Think queer banshees and witches and strong women and girls supporting each other. That’s the plan.

☁️ Read 50 books.

I read 100 last year and 130 the year before that but with focusing on writing and my health I feel that trying to keep reading that many books is just going to stress me out so I’m not doing it!

Also, I’m already struggling to get through a book a week right now and I need to if I have any hope of just reading 50.

☁️ Legally change my name FINALLY!

And guess what guys that one is very close to being complete!

I’ve submitted to the paperwork and now it’s just the waiting for it to get approved and then I can pick up my new birth certificate!

I’ve been waiting for this moment for years so I’m very excited!

☁️ Continue going to therapy.

I’m in a much better mental space than I was last year but I still need therapy. Especially since last year was basically just me venting about how fucked up my family is and this year is about me so I want to use my therapy to focus on my shit, get official diagnoses and maybe testing out medication???

Also find a better way to deal with my paranoia because guys, it’s been especially rough lately.

☁️ Take regular mental health days

This is much needed!!!!!

And by mental health days I mean spend one whole day doing nothing but maybe watching Netflix and reading and crying if I need to.

My mum and I don’t really stop and so we get hit with emotions at really inconvenient times so I’m hoping that if we schedule a day where we can allow ourselves to be emotional then it might help?

I want to aim for once a month but we’ll see.

☁️ Play more video games.

Because they’re fun and I like them and I keep telling myself I don’t have time because it’s not important but fuck important, sometimes you just gotta do shit because it’s fun and pointless.

Past Month Ahead

☁️ Month Ahead // Happy Birthday To Me + Hiatus Announcement – January

☁️ Month Ahead // December – I Already Hate It

☁️ Month Ahead // November – New Post Series

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2019 is all about growth and glow ups guys, I can feel it.

What are you doing this year?
What are you reading?
What are your goals?


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6 thoughts on “2019 Ahead // It’s Twentybiteen, You Ready?

  1. welcome back!! there are SO MANY GOOD BOOKS on your tbr, I cant wait to hear your thoughts on the raven cycle, Sadie, city of ghosts, and the dark artifices series. I love them all sm

    good luck with your goals and your WIP, writing is so exhausting so I feeeeeel
    hope you have an amazing febuary!

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    1. I knoooooow its a little overwhelming if I’m being honest with you but I am excited!!!

      I’m reading Sadie and The Raven Boys (for the second time) right now and oh boy are they both so good I feel like I’ve won the book lottery.

      If I could, I would be doing nothing but reading them this week but work and responsibilities are in the way as per usual…

      Thank you! Fingers crossed I find time to actually sit down and WRITE instead of just mind plotting.

      I hope you do too! ❤️


  2. I’m so sorry to hear 2018 wasn’t a great year for you Grey, I really hope 2019 will be much better ❤️ There are sooo many amazing books on your tbr!! Like Sadie, Simon vs, The Hate UGive… I’ve had Children of Blood and Bone on my shelf since forever as well, but still haven’t picked it up either 😅 THUG only came out here last week as well. I didn’t even know it would be released later until last month so that wasn’t a nice surprise :/ Good luck with all your goals! ❤️

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    1. Thank you Michelle ❤️ I have a feeling it will be better, and if not I’ll just have to wrangle it into being better myself ahah.

      I’m reading Sadie right now and ITS SO GOOD! It makes me want to cry, but in the ‘wow this story is so real and raw and true and painful’ sort of way.

      I know it’s so disappointing!

      Thank you!! ❤️

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