Top Ten Tuesday // Books that Changed Me & I Need to Own – Christmas Book Wishlist

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Like every avid reader, I have a huge book wishlist at all times. 

It comes with the territory I suppose. I’m always adding things to it. Usually books I’ve read from the library and loved so much that I want a copy of my own.

Less often, it’ll have books I haven’t read yet but perhaps I already know I’ll love because of the author, and/or the series.

So let’s take a dive into my bookish wishlist and see what I have there.

If you want to check out my Amazon wishlist you can see it in full here.

If you would like to buy any of the following books please consider using my Book Depository Affiliate link!

Past Top Ten Tuesdays

❄️ Top Ten Tuesday // Collector’s Editions, Women’s History and My Dream Family Library – Books That I Refuse to Let Anyone Touch

❄️ Top Ten Tuesday // Getting in the Christmas Spirit – Holiday Reads

❄️ Top Ten Tuesday // It’s So Hot, I’M DYING – Winter TBR

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anger is a giftAnger is a Gift│Mark Oshiro

“Anger is a gift. Remember that.” She stood. “You gotta grasp onto it, hold it tight and use it as ammunition. You use that anger to get things done instead of just stewing in it.”

I read the ARC for this book not that long ago. I was late in my reading and reviewing it but for some reason I just didn’t feel ready to read it until then. And honestly? I was right.

This book is brutal and honest and real and raw and I loved it.

The amount of times I had to fight tears on the bus while reading this book. Ouch my heart.

I hadn’t even finished the book before I decided I wanted to own a copy of it to put on my book case so that my cousin could borrow it and I can reread it in the future.

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if we were villainsIf We Were Villains│M.L. Rio

You can justify anything, if you do it poetically enough.

Hello, here is another book that stole my heart and cemented it’s place on my wishlist before I’d even finished it.

This book was so intense and dark! I was so wrapped up in it, I got lost and forgot I am not in fact a Shakespeare thespian involved in a murder I may or may not have helped to cover up.

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a conjuring of light collectors edition shades of magic.jpgA Conjuring of Light, Collector’s Edition│Shades of Magic│V.E. Schwab

Anoshe brought solace. And hope. And the strength to let go.

This is the last collectors edition in this series that I don’t yet own.

I’m so excited to get my hands on it!

But I’m trying to be smart.

Both of the other books I managed to get for around $20 by waiting and checking the price every now and again and I’m hoping to do the same here because ya girl is broke.

I just gotta be patient.


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tunnel of bones cassidy blake CBTunnel of Bones│Cassidy Blake│Victoria Schwab

What you can’t see is always scarier than what you can. Your eyes play tricks on you, filling in the shadows, making shapes.

It is known that I am a total Schwab stan so of course Tunnel of Bones is on my list!

I really enjoyed City of Ghosts and I loved ready a middle grade touched with Schwab’s brand of dark honesty mixed with bright hopefulness.

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sadie bookSadie│Courtney Summers

People don’t change. They just get better at hiding who they really are.

I would die for Sadie. In fact I believe a part of me did in fact die while reading this book.

There are exist no words that will ever accurately describe this book and what it means to me.

I want to cry every time I so much as think about this book.

I really want to have my own copy that I can lend to my cousin but also I’m scared because how do you prepare someone for something like that.

It’ll probably look like this:

Maybe have our therapist and me on speed dial when you read this and probably don’t read this when your anxious or sad or struggling or—well just be prepared for the worst but in a good way? And watch Disney movies in between chapters. 

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black irisBlack Iris│Elliot Wake

I never wanted to be saved. I wanted someone to follow me down into the darkness.

This is the only Elliot Wake book I do not own and it’s my favourite!!!!

Go figure.

After I read this book from the library I ordered the next two because I knew that I would want to own all his books already so I might as well start while I had the money to spare.

And then I found someone selling his first book Unteachable secondhand and so I bought that too and now I’m here, still without my favourite Elliot Wake book on my shelf.

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dangerous girlsDangerous Girls│Abigail Haas

Wouldn’t we all look guilty, if someone searched hard enough?

This is the book that got me into YA thrillers.

It’s just so intense and exciting! It kept me guessing from page one.

I don’t want to say much because it’s a book that’s more fun going into blind but I just really love it!

I feel like it’s been on my wishlist forever but I only read it last year!

I mean to be fair, that time last year was a lifetime ago.

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queer there and everywhereQueer, There, And Everywhere│Sarah Prager

I cannot understand those so-called ‘normal’ people who believe that a man should love only a woman, and a woman loves only a man. If this were so, then it disregards completely the spirit, the personality, and the mind, and stresses the importance of the physical body.

It’s no secret that I am a slut of history, women’s history and queer history specifically.

One day I want to have a whole ass bookcase dedicated to history, at least.

I want somewhere I can turn to when I want to learn and feel comfort in the fact that humans have always been a hot fucking mess. But mostly I want to have somewhere I can turn to where I can people who were like me in years gone past who refused to shrink or stay silent and refused to be anything but themselves.

This is, I think the first YA nonfiction book about queer history so I have to own it at some point. I just have to. I don’t make the rules.

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the nowhere girlsThe Nowhere Girls│Amy Reed

“I wish things didn’t have to get violent,” Grace says.
“They already were violent,” Allison says.

This book is powerful. It contains the screams of cries of girls.

But it also contains the love of girls comforting and supporting each other too.

In 2018 there was like a a couple of months of me just reading female led powerful books, one after the other, and it kept me going in a time when I wasn’t sure I could go for much longer.

So I’m doing my best to get my hands on all those books that held me together when I didn’t have the privilege to fall apart.

The Nowhere Girls was one of them.

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all out anthologyAll Out│Saundra Mitchell

My father had said, “If it happens again, I will kill him.”
Then you may as well kill me, too, I’d screamed with my hands, stabbing my finger at my own heart.

This book made me realise that the only valid Robin Hood retelling was a queer one with trans Robin Hood and a deaf Will Scarlet.

Mostly it was just so fucking validating to read a whole anthology dedicated only to queer characters. I lost count of how many times I cried.

But also Elliot Wake, I’m still waiting on that full novel version of Every Shade of Red. Whatever the price, I’ll pay it.

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Honourable Mention

every heart a doorwayWayward Children│Seanan McGuire

We all have our own ways of trying to go home.

I am putting this as an honourable mention because I haven’t got any of the books in this series and I want them all.

I borrowed the first three from the library to read them and they’re just so damn good.

They’re diverse af, magical and whimsical but also dark and honest and I love all of the characters.

It’s just such a solid series and I still mystified as to how McGuire can fit so much into such small packages.

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Past Top 5 Tuesdays

❄️ Top 5 Tuesday // Incredible Introductions – An Excuse to Share More Quotes

❄️ Top 5 Tuesday // Character Driven Books – The Books with My favourite Monsters

❄️ Top 5 Tuesday // Unread 2019 Releases – Books I Didn’t Get to in 2019

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What a variety of books!

What books are on your wishlist?
Do you have any of these books on yours?
Or do you already own any of them?


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