Well. It’s Been A Month.
I don’t know if I have much more words in me to sum it up better than that.
But I suppose I should try.
I read a lot, I spent too much time of Facebook, I got really fucking angry, I went to the movies, I had dinner with mum, work had me wanting to pull out my hair, I got into a fight with my Nana and had a meltdown while I was visiting my aunt. Oh and a went on a hike and almost died.
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│Made You Up│✅│
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Click the stars for my review . . . if I’ve posted one.
probably not though.
│Smoke Gets in Your Eyes│Caitlin Doughty│🎧│🔆🙏🏻🧠🌹│🌏│🎧│✅│★★★★│Read May 3│
│Wishful Drinking│Carrie Fisher│🎧│🧠🚬│📫│🌏│🎧│✅│★★★★│Read May 21│
│Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief│Percy Jackson & the Olympians│Rick Riordan│📖│♿️🧠🌹│🤔📫│📖🌏│✅│★★★★│Read May 22│
│Secrets For the Mad│Dodie Clarke│🎧│🏳️🌈💋🧠🌹│📫🗳│🌏│🎧│✅│★★★★★│Read 24│
│Sharp Objects│Gillian Flynn│📖│🙏🏻🧠🚬🌹│📫🗳│📖🌏│✅│★★★★★│Read 28│
│Blue Lily, Lily Blue│The Raven Cycle│Maggie Stiefvater│📖│🏳️🌈🔆♿️🧠🙏🏻🌹│🗳│📖🌏│✅│★★★★★│Read 31│
│Lady Margret Cavendish│King Christina of Sweden│Julie D’Aubigny, AKA la Maupin│Sybilla Masters│Sybil Ludington│Bygone Badass Broads│Mackenzi Lee│📖│🔆🚺│📖🌏⚡│▶️ 39%│
│Tin Hinan│Hatshepsut│Emmy Noether│Ka’ahumanu│Katie Sandwina│Garcia Mendes Nasi│Sayyida al-Hurra│Matilda of Tuscany│Moll Cutpurse│Nellie Bly & Elizabeth Bisland│Rejected Princesses│Jason Porath│📖│🔆🌹🚺│📖🌏✨│▶️ 34%│
Book of the Month
│Read Round Up + Averages│▶️ 2│❌ 0│🚫 0│🔄 0│💫4.3★│⏱ 11 Days│
│Structured TBR Must Read│✅ 8/5│📥 1/1│
📤 0/0│📖 3/2│🌏 8/3│✨ 10/10│⚡ 5/5│
│Structured TBR Allowances│📚 1/1│📲 0/0│📕 1/1│📗 0/0│🎧 3/2│
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│Girls with Sharp Sticks│Girls with Sharp Sticks #1│Suzanne Young│📖│🌹🚺│
Does this go against my rule of buying books I haven’t read yet? Yes.
But Destiny @ Howling Libraries loved it so I’ve made a completely sensible choice.
So, fight me . . . me.
│Nevernight│The Nevernight Chornicle #1│📖│Jay Kristoff│🏳️🌈💋│
Do I already have this on Kindle? Yes.
Am I breaking my own rules by purchasing a physical copy of this book even though I haven’t read it or anything else by the author and I already fucking have it? Also yes.
BUT!!! It get’s an exception because I know I’m probably gonna love it and then end up buying it anyway because everyone and their dog loves it and also its a fave of Piera Forde and I would trust her with my life.
But mostly, I bought it from a thrift store for only $4. That’s a steal.
│The Secret History│Donna Tartt│📖│🏳️🌈│
A week after finding Nevernight in a thrift store, I found this bad boy in another one for only $2!!!
I am still yet to find what I originally went into these thrift stores for; a winter coat. Damn it.
But at least I got some books so the trips weren’t a total waste.
Past Grey Reads
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Film & TV
│Game of Thrones│Season 5-8│✅│
│The Bold Type│Season 3│✅│
│Brooklyn Nine-Nine│Season 6│✅│
│The Hustle│❌│ – Mum and I are watching it this weekend though! Thanks Hoyts Move of the Week.
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│Game of Thrones│Season 5-7│📺│2011│💭 David Benioff, D.B. Weiss│🌟 Emilia Clarke, Peter Dinklage, Kit Harington│
I’ve just started the new season (only one episode in) and I’m shitting bricks because the reactions I’ve seen on social media have . . . not been good.
│The Bold Type│Season 3│📺│2017│💭 Sarah Watson│🌟Katie Stevens, Aisha Dee, Meghann Fahy│
This is exactly the show I need in today’s political climate.
│Brooklyn Nine-Nine│Season 6│📺│2013│💭 Daniel J. Goor, Michael Schur│🌟 Andre Braugher, Andy Samberg, Stephanie Beatriz│Watching weekly episodes│
I swear I only ever watch episodes the day the one I’m up to is about to expire on SBS On Demand.
I am in mourning. This season was a mess. I still haven’t watched the finale. I’m stressed.
│Grace and Frankie│Seasons 1-5│🎥│2015│💭 Marta Kauffman, Howard J. Morris│🌟 Jane Fonda, Lily Tomlin, Sam Waterston│
My mum started watching this ages ago and I would occasionally watch with her but not really pay attention because how would a show about two old ladies be interesting for me????
I was wrong.
I’ve binge watched all the episodes on Netflix and god was it good. I love Frankie so much, I mean she’d people one of those people I could only handle in small amounts in real life but watching her wreck havoc on everything she touches?? An icon.
I love Coyote and Brianna so much! I feel like they each represent an opposing side of my personality, with a little Bud thrown in, if we’re being totally honest. If you wanna know what it’s like in my head, watch any scene where these three characters interact.
│Avengers Endgame│🎥│2019│🎬 Anthony Russo, Joe Russo│🌟 Brie Larson, Winston Duke, Karen Gillan│★★★★│
I loved it and hated it.
Also, I don’t care how much that female avenger scene was straight up pandering, I nearly cried.
Past Grey Watches
Use Your Words Highlights
I really wish I could include a Grey Learns post here but I didn’t have it in me to do it, that shit takes so much time and brain power. But
I promise I’ll try to do one for Pride month!
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Buckle up, it’s a long one.
│Krystin @ Here’s The Fucking Twist│My Favorite Murder Mentioned My Blog and I’m Losing My Fucking Mind.│Opinion: Banning Abortion Doesn’t Stop Abortion│True Crime Tuesday: Bobby Joe Long│A “Here’s The Fucking Twist” Giveaway!│
│Destiny @ Howling Libraries│SHELF TOUR TIME! #1 — INTRODUCING MY TBR CART!│
│Elise @ The Bookish Actress│Blogger Recognition Award: I Share My Origin Story, and Give Blogging Advice│Your Lack of Interest In Anything About WLW Does Not Exist In a Vacuum│Managing the Life & Blogging Grind, part one: How I Operate My Week│
│Anna & Charlotte @ Reads Rainbow│BOOK RELEASES: MAY (I)│BOOK RELEASES: MAY (II)│BOOK RELEASES: MAY (III)│
│BOOK RECS: BOOKS SET AT BOARDING SCHOOLS│BOOK RECS: THE GREAT BIG LGBT REC LIST│
│BOOK RECS: ADULT LIT (I)│BOOK RECS: ADULT LIT (II)│
│Marie @ Drizzle & Hurricane Books│HOW TO FIND YOUR BLOGGING VOICE AND YOUR BEST BLOGGING-SELF│18 YA BOOKS ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH FOR MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH│BOOK BLOGGING WITH ANXIETY│12 YA BOOKS WITH GREAT FRIENDSHIPS│5 REASONS I KEEP ON WRITING BOOK REVIEWS│
│Multiple Authors via Fadwa @ Word Wonders│#MUSLIMVOICESRISEUP│
│Gail @ SheIsAWonder via Fadwa @ Word Wonders│#DIVERSEBOOKBLOGGERSDISCUSS : JEW-ERASURE IN FANDOM│
│Hannah @ The Book Thief without Words via Fadwa @ Word Wonders│#DIVERSEBOOKBLOGGERSDISCUSS: JEWISH BOOK RECOMMENDATIONS│
│Nadia @ Our Worlds of Words via Fadwa @ Word Wonders│#DIVERSEBOOKBLOGGERSDISCUSS: THE “HIDDEN GEMS”: WHY ARE F/F ROMANCES SO HARD TO FIND?│
│Zara @ Copper Poet│Why My Chronic Illness Makes Me Feel Like A Failure│
│Ayah @ DystopianCitzn│Sensitivity Reading Services│
│Kathryn Tory via Lauren @ Northern Plunder│How Bad Books Make Me a Better Writer | Guest Post from author Kathryn Troy│
│Olivia @ Purely Olivia│My Pride Month TBR // 6 Books With LGBTQ+ Characters That I Want to Read in June!│
│CW @ The Quiet Pond│Want to Read More Diverse Books? Here are Six Tips to Diversify Your Reading! │Book Recommendations with Varian – Happy Asian Pacific Heritage Month! Books By Maori and Pasifika Authors│
│Julianna @ Paper Blots│The Pros & Cons of Reading Challenges/Readathons (ft. upcoming diverse challenges you can join)│
│Aurora @ Aurora Librialis│7 Books to Cure Your Game of Thrones Hangover│Your Favorite Female Friendships as Book Recommendations│
│Molly @ Bi Bookish Babe│Announcing the “Queers gone by” reading & art challenge!│64 book recommendations for Queers Gone By challenges│Disabled blogger/youtuber directory (100+!!)│LGBTQ+ Blogger/Youtuber Directory (100+!!)│LGBTQ+ Writers Wanted│
│Mahana @ Sapphic Library│“I Want [Insert Trope Here] But Sapphic!” Friend, Do I Have Some Good News For You│
│Madeline @ Caffeine & Writing Dreams│5 Things I Wish Someone Had Told Me About Blogging (It’s My 1 Year Blogiversary!!)│Dear “Aspiring” Authors // How to Stop Aspiring & Start Being│
│Nandini @ Unputdownable Books│10 Most Interesting Asian Myths and Retellings│Reading 101: How to Fit Reading Into Your Daily Schedule│
│Amy @ Golden Books Girl│Five Books That Remind Me of Panic! At the Disco Songs│
│Louise @ Foxes And Fairy Tales│Books Recs Based on Your Fave Game of Thrones Characters│
How can I choose just a few when Y’all are all putting out such good content.
Past Month In Review
⛈ Start walking regularly again because boy have I been hella fucking slack without any good reason! ❌
I’ve been walking more than last month, but it’s still not great.
⛈ Keep up with taking detailed notes while reading each book ✅
I’ve been really great at this! I just have to make sure I have my Google Doc ready to go for ebook reading before I start reading because it’s too hard to set up on my phone. Templates are helping with that though . . . well they would if it wasn’t for the fact I keep changing how I want it formatted with every book!
I really fucking wish I’d started doing the detailed notes thing before I read the first 2 Raven Cycle books that I’m still yet to write reviews for, months later.
But you live and you learn. Hopefully I can just go off the quotes I have saved and form some sort of notes that way.
⛈ Try and enter all the quotes for the books I read last month??? ❌
I tried but I read so many books! I’ll get there.
I don’t have a functioning laptop, just a desktop computer (in hindsight I know I should have gotten a laptop but whatever) and I like to watch TV while I’m entering quotes but my mum is using her laptop to study and I don’t like type large amounts of stuff using just my tablet or phone. But I am buying a keyboard for my tablet tonight (23/5) so that will hopefully mean I can start getting on top the quote entering.
(1/6) HAHAHA I bought the keyboard and hated it so I returned it and I’m saving for a second hand laptop instead.
⛈ Visit my aunt again! ✅
I did, it kind of went to shit and I left early but I went!
⛈ Apply for some full time work ❌
So, I’m not applying for work now because I’m still too anxious. Instead I’m enrolling in a course to help build my confidence.
I Nearly Died
So my mum took me on a hike and it was beautiful. I got to see a waterfall, and the clearest water I’ve ever seen, and I looked out over the trail from inside a cave.
But to get to the cave I had to climb a lot of steps and I ended up having my first asthma attack in 15 years.
And because I hadn’t had one in so long, I never take a puffer with me anywhere anymore, so then I had a panic attack while having the asthma attack and cried while mum tried to get me to calm down and I watched a 3 year old walk up the steps, perfectly fine.
But the view was breath-taking and I still pushed myself to make it to the waterfall and cried once I got there because I’m a wreck. I’m looking forward to going again, we’re going to make it a monthly thing, but next time, no cave.
For Mother’s Day, my mum, brother, and I went out for dinner and I got to meet my brother’s adorable kitten, Loki. He’s so cute, I was nearly crying over how cute he is. Listen, I am an emotional wreck lately. I just love baby animals so much.
Then Mum and I went to see Avengers: Endgame, with mum not having finished Infinity War, so I had to give her a quick catch up before it started. And I still haven’t watched the last Ant-Man movie but I could join the dots for the most part.
It was a great night out and I didn’t once want to strangle my brother so that’s always a win in my book.
At work, we also had a mother’s day promotion and it ended with me very angry at entitled customers and an incompetent co-worker, and with a bag leaking tea because I grabbed a mug with a broken seal before work. Fun!
So, as you can imagine I was desperate to go on my weekend away to my aunts.
I listened to a whole audiobook on the way there, from start to finish, so I was starting it on a good note.
Unfortunately I did not sleep as well as I did last time, not even close. And my mental health is severely affected by my lack of sleep so that wasn’t great.
Then I had to see a family member that causes a lot of triggers for me and then got into an argument with another family because I was already hella anxious and so it was harder for me to keep my mouth shut, like I normally would.
My aunt helped calm me down and tried to get me to stay for the whole visit as intended but I needed home, my bed and my mum. So I did leave but my aunt told me that she’d make sure the triggering family wouldn’t be around any time I visit in the future and that I probably wouldn’t be seeing much of the family member I fought with on future visits like I have been so far. I mean, don’t get me wrong. I love them, but a lot of my family I can only handle in small doses. These family members are two of them.
Look, I know that sometimes you have to argue with people, and stand for what you believe in and others, and most of the time I do. But I know that I’m not the person to educate this family member. At least not in this area. It’s too much of a sensitive topic for either of us and so I’ll leave this particular topic for my aunt.
We kind of made up, but not really. It was more of:
‘thanks for helping me with that thing’ – said with a wall between us
‘I just want to hug her and make it better’
‘that’s probably a bad idea’
But at least yelling wasn’t the last communication between us.
I Enrolled in a Course
So, since my mum could see that I still was super anxious about applying for jobs, she enrolled me into a course on bookkeeping so I would gain a bit more confidence before diving into the job-seeking world again.
I’m hoping it won’t affect my ability to blog too much, but I’m also realistic so there’s a chance I might have to go on hiatus again soon. Hopefully after Pride month because I was really looking forward to doing a special pride Grey Learns.
Past Month Ahead
What a month!
I fell like I say that every month???
What did you do this month?
What did you read?
What did you watch?
What posts did you write that you’re super proud of?