Author: Anita Cassidy
Publisher: Red Door Publishing
Released: January 11th, 2018
Trigger Warnings: Fatphobia
Synopsis*: Because everyone hungers for something…
Food and Sex: two appetites the modern world stimulates, but also the ones we are expected to keep under control. But what happens when we don’t?
Embarking on an affair, lonely wife and mother Naomi blossoms sexually in a false spring while David, the fattest boy at the local comprehensive and best friend of her son, struggles to overcome bullying and the apathy of his divorced mother.
David finally starts to learn about the mechanisms of appetite through a science project set by his intelligent but jaded teacher, Matthew. David’s brave efforts to change himself open Matthew’s eyes to his activist girlfriend’s dangerous plans to blow up VitSip, a local energy-drink company where Naomi works.
At the mercy of their appetites, this exciting debut novel shows that some hungers can never be satisfied…
Today, he thought, should be a good day. Today, I am feeling unusually angry. These days, the says when he felt this rage, were the easy ones. It was the sad days he found the hardest to bear. Days when the sadness was there when he woke up in the morning and followed him until nightfall like a weary shadow. The sadness was viscous, a tar pool that pulled at him, wanting to drag him under.
This might be a case of it’s not you, it’s me but I’m not really sure.
The way it’s written is quite dry, too dry for me at least. I wasn’t interested in any of the main characters. The only one I really connected with was David and I dreaded reading about him because I knew that meant having to withstand reading the fat shaming made towards him, and it wasn’t just a snide mark here or there, it was brutal.
David experiences far worse bullying over his weight just in the first chapter than I have in my entire life and I was overweight my whole high school life and most of my adulthood so far. It was just so cruel and I really struggled to get through it.
I don’t doubt that it is real to life though because I know just how cruel people can be and perhaps its worse over in America? I think it’s good for people who aren’t fat and have never been fat to perhaps read it to better understand what it’s like but I wouldn’t advise actual fat people to read it.
I didn’t really like that they went with the stereotype that fat people eat and eat and eat. I never would have raced to the toilet just to eat a chocolate bar between classes or chosen what food my meal would be just based on which gave you the bigger serving but I did relate to doing your best to avoid being seen getting seconds or not admitting to being hungry because you’re worried what people would think.
I struggled to connect with Naomi for the same reasons I usually struggle to connect with any character that’s middle-aged, she’s married and has kids and seems to be doing well in life and is obviously being tempted by an affair. I just can’t connect to that as someone who is only 24, doesn’t want kids and isn’t really that interested in the whole marriage thing either and I quite averse to affair plots. I just don’t understand why you wouldn’t just leave your partner if you were thinking about wanting to have sex with someone else.
I didn’t really connect with Matthew at either but I can’t really pinpoint why.
I just don’t think I was the main demographic for this book, and that’s okay.
If you do like adult fiction, and everything I’ve mentioned above then this book is probably for you. Unfortunately, it just wasn’t for me.
He thought, you might hate me but, believe me, I will always hate myself more.
*Taken from Goodreads.
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